Confusing

As stated above, I'm currently kind of confused due to some incident happened lately, me and my dear considered broke up, but then, she came back last week after I tried to talk to her and beg for her forgiveness, she even stayed at my place like usual, but I've no idea why after she leave Malaysia, she started to act strange and dig back those things which happened 3weeks ago to argue, and added some arguments on during the weekend she's here, and kept saying that we were past, and what ever she do is none of my business and stuff, is weird she said so.

I really hope that she could just forget and forgive what ever had happened, but her stubborn attitude ain't gonna changed her point of view, I've had tried to talk to her, to forget and forgive, she said that she understand at 1st, but now, she still bring it out to argue over and over again, non stop argument should said.

The incident that pissed her off is about the farewell party which held at Ms. K's place, it was some where around January, to be exact, is a weekend before Chinese new year, as Ms. K is leaving Malaysia to Perth to further her Event Management Degree there, the incident happened like this, before we head to Ms. K's house, Mr K and Ms. I asked us to meet up with them at curve to choose present for Ms. K, but my dear earlier on promised Mr. D to go out, so the time clashed, what we can do is, to ask Mr. D to fetch us to Curve to choose present after that only dinner with Mr. D, we reached the curve around 5pm +, meet up with Ms. I and Mr. K there to choose present for Ms. K, and Mr. D went to do his stuff around Curve , will meet up after me and my dear settle down our things, and 4 of us walked around the street to search for our present for Ms. K. We bought a bottle of Wine from CASA NOVA CELLAR and a weekly hanger from a weird stall for Ms K.

After that, me and my dear went to Pelangi to have dinner with Mr. D, after dinner, I this lazy bum, don't want to waste my time, thereafter, asked Mr. D straight away drop me and my dear at Ms. K's place, I forgotten that Ms. K didn't want Mr. D to know bout this farewell party and also her personal stuff, so when Ms. K know that I asked Mr. D to drop us there, she screwed me up, after that, we settle down ourselves, and meet up with Mr. C, Mr. K and Ms. I to sit down for some chit chatting moment, while chit chatting there, my dear is busy sms-ing her friends for some clubbing session after this to safe her out from this boring events, she showed me those kind of faces that I don't like probably all the friends that I know not closed to her, so I asked her is it wanna go off, she said yes, after for about 2hours at there feeding mosquitor, I asked Mr. C to fetch us home, as my dear need to change and go clubbing with friends, so we walked over to Ms. K while she entertaining her others friend"S"(More than 50 peoples is there that day), to tell her that we were leaving, and I will be back later. She said Ok, so we head back to my place around 11pm plus plus, waited my dear to change and go clubbing with her friend, after that only I go back to Ms. K place continue talk cock sing song, but right after my dear went out, I suddenly feels like wanna poo, so went for a hot shower and do my big business, while shower, Mr. C called me up to informed me that they are leaving as Mr. C need to work, Ms. I's brother Mr. T is sleepy, so they are leaving soon. thereafter, I told them to help me inform Ms. K that I'm not coming back since those friend of her that I know already going off. I slept around 1230am that night.

The next day, as I know, if is me, I also will feel sad if your friends went off earlier and couldn't have a chance to snap picture for memorial purposed, so I online msn Ms. I to get some update, really beyond my expected, Ms. K is upset about me and my dear leaving earlier and I didn't go back to attend her party day before, so I apologize to Ms. K, and demanded my dear that she better do something that make Ms. K feel better, but she kept denying that she didn't do wrong at the 1st place and stuff, but for my opinion, even you didn't do wrong, but when you know that your friend is upset because of you or part of it is related to you, you should do something to cheer her back ma, but for her, is not necessary to do, so I tried to make her understand it, but this has gone too far, until is caused us to break up due to this matter, she claims that I didn't stand on her side, she said I side my friends more than her, which is really unacceptable for me, she's the one I loved the most, she dare to say this to me, at 1st I felt offended, but after I calm myself down, I know that she said so is because she too pissed due to the arguments, so I forgive her and tried to tell her that I didn't side anyone of it, I judge it based of my own opinion.

Last week, I called her up and lectured her for more than 1 hour, finally, she understand what I'm trying to tell, and decided to forget and forgive about Ms. K matter, just the very next day, around 7pm, my dear sms-ed me that asked me to check my facebook and see what Ms. K did, I quickly switched on my laptop and check my facebook, found that one of the picture in Ms. K's latest picture album taken at Perth is the hanger that we bought for her from The Curve the other day, with the tag of our names, except my dear's name, she tag as anonymous instead of my dear's name, and I knew that this is the reason why my dear text me with anger and kept cursing and cursing over the msg, after reading the picture comment, I get even pissed than my dear, until I couldn't control myself and start bursting to Ms. I about what Ms. K did and ask her to ask Ms. K to do something on that, the next day, the tag line changed, but my dear still shooting me that I treat Ms. K so good and even I screwed her up because she didn't apologize to Ms. K AGAIN that she leave earlier during that party, and ended up, Ms. K do that to her, that's plain "GIRL'S FIGHT" but I tried to calmed her down by telling her that I already told Ms. I and Ms. K to do something, to proof that I didn't side anyone in this matter, and I really judge based on the case using my own opinion.

But everything is not so fine after all, she still couldn't forget the incident and forgive who ever involved in the argument, not even me as at to date, I told her that I just want to safe back the relationship, and less argument with her, but she replied me that, a day I disagree with her, there's no point to continue this relationship, but I already didn't talk about it, think about it, I really have no idea what she want me to do only can forget this case, I really tired and pressure with all the argument these days, but I don't want to loosed her, because I really love her, as I mentioned a year before, she's unique, she's special, she had met 80% the requirement that my girlfriend should have, it is hard to find a girl that can met my requirement, although that her attitude got some problem, but as I know, no body is perfect. She said that we were past, I don't know whether she really meant it or not, of cause I hope she ain't serious, because I really don't want to loosed this relationship, is hard to maintained LDR, but we had maintained 1 year plus, if gone just due to those small issue, is really not worth!

Well, if she really meant it, then I have nothing much to say, maybe this is the faith that we should have? I probably need to rearrange my mindset to fully focus on my study instead? No idea, maybe after my Degree, I will find her back, as if she's still available that time, I will stay single but not available until I finish my degree if she really meant to end this relationship this time. What I wanna say to her if she is reading this is, Dear, I really love you, I hope you could forget everything and continue our relationship with less arguments and more lovely. Signing off. Good day peepz.