Thank you for telling me the actual facts

Wednesday nights, I went to Siew Yan (Xgf)'s house to help her check her router whether got problems or what, since she said that she couldn't online, and I'm going to meet her up regarding my accounts assignment, so decided to go her house to check up whats happening, but didn't help much, because I suspect is the phone line problems, didn't try it out because she don't have a phone to dial, lolz....

After half an hour checking her laptop setting and so on, she asked me not to waste time on it since the internet lights is not blinking, after that, she asked me whether I know bout printer stuff or not, I replied her a lil bit, so she show me her printing, it's blur, guess it's her cartridge out of ink already lar, she disagree with me and said that she just started to print her slides 2 weeks ago, how come so fast finish, then I asked her, how many slides you've printed out, she said 1 stack only, then I tried her color printing, no problems what, so it's either the cartridge out of ink, or spoiled already. After that, she show me her working on my assignment, it's looks simple, I admit actually, but then, I lost few of my sample, thats why need her help, but in the end, she done all for me, I just need to double check my working and her working, see where's my problems, and I realized that I'm still poor in accounting, lols, yea, I hate accounts.

After she showing me her workings, asked her whether wants to have a drinks or not, she said for awhile, so we went down to her apartment mamak to have a drinks, well, chat about her life, and the fella, showed me her bday celebration video clips by her college mates @ Mc Donalds, the fella sang song with using a guitar, and she said kinda touches, yea, thats hurt my hearts, for the moment that I saw the fella, felt like puking, in fact, the fella looks gross with his hairstyle with baring tooth, and dress like an AH BENG, no idea why she will like this kinda guy, kinda disappointed by her.

She finally burst out why she will stand till so tough on this breakup case, she said she had enough of pressure from me, my financial problems, when every times she saw I'm pressure bout my financial problems, she will feels that she's my burdens as well. Well I couldn't blame her for that, and I know, I do felt that she's pressure when I'm bothering by my dad's problems, it's start when I started my college, when comes to end of the months, it's time to pay for the car installment, and his client hasn't pay him for his renovation, here comes the pressure, he confirm will give me a call, saying that today need to pay car installment, and need to borrow from me, that time I still need to pay for my own college fees man, after borrowing him my money, I'll become moody because lack of cash in hand, and no mood to go dating with her and so on, I apologize on this matter, it's all my fault, but then you should bring out this issue to talk to me what, instead of keep quite there. I remember there's once we quarrel until asked for a cooling period, yea, I still remember, sorry for that. But now, my dad financial is getting better, almost every weeks got money come received, and some banked into my accounts or cheque issued under my name but cash out, sooner or later, he will get me in a pieces of shit again, incometax agent must be suspect how come this guy every weeks also cash cheque rm17K and his accounts has only few thousand. I don't wants to get taxes so soon, darn....

2nd facts that she forced herself to be tough it's because she thought that every times she need my opinion, I'll just sounded/scolded/argue at/with her instead of giving what she wanted to know, but have you ever think before why and what is contained in the words that I've sounded at you, I meaning that, what is my meaning in my words?I can tell you that, what ever I told you, there's a hidden meaning, but you just don't want to think twice, and every time I told you to be CONFIDENCE a bit, you just keep on saying that I don't have confidence on doing this and that, you just looking yourself down, not me, and damn obviously that you and me got communication error or should I said that I'm using to wrong way?Should be.

You said that you sacrifice a lot things to me, like kept fit and so on, but have you ever think before that, if you don't kept fit, do you think right now you can get that much of admire?Even thou you broke up with me, it's damn easy for you to get another guy than last time right?I do what ever stuff also good for you, but you just don't realized what I done for you, another disappointment. You only remember what you done for me, do you know that you're the 1st gf that ever tasted my cooking?

3rd facts, she told me that she have no idea why she will fall in love with that guy, she told me that during her college times everyday woke up, 1st person will think of him, thinking of him doesn't prove that you like him, maybe he caught your attention, but not until you fall in love with him, and until betrayed your 2yrs ++ bf who had been sincere to you all the time, not even knowing any girls in club, college and so on. another disappointment.

4th facts, I admit I treat you badly when I'm having a bad mood, I felt guilty every times when I made you cried, I'm sorry in this matter, my bad, I just have too much of burdens and pressure, don't mean to hurt you by that way. I apologize.

The most disappointment on this broken relationship is I still couldn't accept that, in short short 2 weeks times, she told me she likes two different guys, 1 is only admire his style, 2nd is like, and hurt me twice by saying I like a guy that already had a gf, it affected my appetite, my mood, even I'm having insomnia in the night, I guess should go for a body checkup soon, felt that whole body unwell, not blaming you, but it's true, I felt dizzy/fainting everyday, no idea why, hopefully nothing happen in my brain, scare got tumor or what then Shiat lar, I still got lotza stuff hasn't do. Anyhow, I still very love her, yea, but I know that we have no way to get back like last time, now we were still friend, but in the future, I don't know whether you'll come back to me or not, just let it be in the natural way, and it won't cure that easily, don't and or stop telling me about him and so on, I really hate that, even thou that I pretend to be happy, but it need times to heal, but I'd prefer to have a substitution that can make me happy, so that I can cure faster, ahaha, how evil I'm? 80% certified as a Evil Khin, lolz....

Yea, tonight I'm going to Bubu Long Beach (Redang), Wee Wang Wang Wee Wang Wang, can't wait to see the blue blue beach with those bikini's girl, weeeeeee......hasn't pack my stuff, plaining to get laid, going to buy liquor to Bubu Long Beach after work, and guess what, the pix below will tell you how I felt when I open my wallet :-

my dom dom packet pecah again, damn....this is the 2nd condom that I put in my wallet for a sudden sex or call it spare if needed, darn 2 also pecah, wasted, I bought a box of dom dom, Durex Play type, now I guess left few only, mahai, expensive lar rm20++ only got 8 dom dom + 2 packet of lubricant, used 2 or 3 I guess, pecah 2, left 3-4 only, darn.....nvm don't think will need it so soon, oh, bring it to Bubu Long Beach, probably need it, because according to Bernard statement that chances to get laid is more than 50%, buahahaha, wish me luck wish me luck, can't stop imagining when you step on the beach side, some bikini's girl asked you to help them put sunblock lotion, wuahahahahaha, syiok and stim arghhh......Khinko The HAMSAP GUAI/Pervert GHOST!!Wuahahaha...