She Changed Since She Entered UTAR..

Well, I guess some should know that June 07 start, my girlfriend will be studying at UTAR seksyen 17 to study for her physiology course.

Ever since she entered UTAR, her attitude changed tremendously, is somehow out of my expected, I expect sooner or later, she'll become more mature when she walking her collage life, and some wolf out there will try to get close to her to tackle her and so on. I've prepared myself on this kinda problems, but I didn't know that it will happened after 2 weeks she's there.

She started to text me lesser than normal, didn't care bout my feelings at all, and kept on telling me her story at UTAR, which friends handsome, which wants to tackle her, this and that, and you guys know what, she told me that she 'heart shake' on a guy that same class with her, and that guy were trying to tackle her.

Well, the story started like this, her friends around told her that the guys named Reeve not only wants to be her normal friends, he wants to be her bf something like that, and my girlfriend said that she already taken and not available for the moment, but this guys is trying so hard to get my gf attention on him, and 1 fine days, I had a fight with my gf, and she burst out every single little things regarding both of them, she said that she 'heart shake' with this guy and it's like that time she felt 'heart shake' with me and her xbf like that, I was like "WTF do you know what the fuck you're talking?" I then highlighted "it's like that time she 'heart shake' when with me and her xbf like that" to her, then we stopped the conversation as it's already late at night.

The next day morning, she said that she didn't mean it as she said she just admire the guy named Reeve, then I said "I don't give a damn whether you're admiring him or really feel heart shake with him, please be ensure that I'm your bf, please do care my feelings, and please think whether you still have feel with me or not". She then replied "I still love you, I'm very sure I just admire Reeve". Well, I asked for a cooling period for both of us and let her to think properly whether she still love me or not, she said that she don't need a cooling period, she pretty sure that she still very love me and damn clear that I'm the only one who treat her well, which I don't think she's telling the truth, after few days of cool period, I asked her out after my class, and when she walked towards me, the feels is less, and she didn't smile or act cute face when she walked to me, she really changed a lots.

Well, after the meeting, I'd fetch her back to her house, and guess what, I accidentally killed a CAT, wtf, I didn't mean to kill the cat, as when I turn into my gf's apartments junction, 2 cats was playing chasing and so happen that a Perodua Kembara hit one of the cats, and the cats was seriously injured, the cat row and row and row in front of my car, I then applied for break, and waited the cat row away from my car so that I wouldn't knock the cat again or what ever, right after the cat row away from my car, I then applied for accelerate, and guess what again, the stupid injured cat row back to my rear tyre, and yeap, I killed the cat, I'm so fucking guilty, sorry to the cat, this is the 1st time I killed a animal besides fish & insects, what the hell, alright, continue my stories, after the meeting, she'd promised me that she will not chat with Reeve again and make sure she won't stick with him, alright, I trust her this time.

2 days later, she said that Reeve didn't chat with her, so she guess that Reeve know and understands whats going on, yea, I should be happy isn't? But then, I didn't mean to blocked her for meeting/making new friends at UTAR, but just don't too over, the next days means today, she forwarded those msg that Reeve sent her last night, saying that "I wanted 2 chat, but i still prefer u 2 get a gud rest which u would nd it a lot..no hard feelings, alrite?gd9 n sweet dreams!" 2nd msg, "just want to chat with u lar, bt so late ady let u rest la, u hv many nights don't sleep well liao..nw wat i wan u 2 do is to ge a gud slp n hav a gud dream..ok?" hey, hey, this is too much man, who you think you're? Come on, the one who should care about her and ask her to sleep is me, ain't you, don't you think that you're over the border?If I were the last time, I guess you will have a great rest at you home man, get a life, aim for others single female, she's mine!! Basket.

I highlighted to my gf that if I found out that she betray me, I'll make her suffer like no body business, she asked me how, and kept on ask which I don't want to let her know, she made me feels that she might betray me some days, alright, I told her she will suffer like the cat that I accidentally killed when I fetch her home, she then stopped to ask further more, and I told her that I don't want to talk bout this matter before our Redang trip, as that was her birthday present and her SPM 8 a's present, because I don't want to wasted the trip and what ever that I've paid for and so on, well, I guess I should make a move after that trip if I feels that she ain't really love me no more. Ohya, my trip is on 7th of July 2007, after that, I've a strong feelings that I'll let go, and good luck to Reeve...take my words...